Friday, June 20, 2008

Humbled. This is what being a new parent has done to us. We adore our new boy beyond words. But there is no doubt that some things cannot be described in advance, that you can think you know, that you can assume you know how hard something will be...and truthfully you cannot until you are there.

It's a kind of difficult that is totally worth it, but wow! I will never be the same person again.


At 7:36 AM, Blogger Maryanne Stahl said...

no, you are never the same person again and that is as wrenching as birth itself. it's as though you were reborn along with your son and the air in your lungs is cold and good and really hard to breathe.

from the kitchen:

sweet Jordan.

my heart goes out to new mommies. it's the hardest thing in the world and no one can really prepare you for that. nor do we veterans want to sound negative about the most profound blessing one can experience.

god, the emotional intensity of it all! such swelling love the likes of which you could not have imagined, coupled with exhaustion, constant worry about whether you are doing the right thing, hormonal surges, exquisite joy, sudden sadness over the tiniest things, especially anything that might cause the baby a moment's discomfort, incredible closeness to your husband and yet also a bubble of a world that's just you and the baby...

I remember all of it every time someone I love gives birth.


At 10:17 AM, Blogger L.C.McCabe said...

Awwww. He is so cute.

Sleeping babies have an ethereal glow about them.

In our talks on the phone when you were entering your last few months I knew that there were things that you were not ready to hear, because you cannot understand them until you are a parent.

It is an awesome and ineffable knowledge that only comes from the experience of childbirth and having a newborn in your arms.

There are adjustments to your lives that no one can adequately prepare you for in advance.

Take the time that you need and do not let any pre-birth perceptions of your time management skills get in the way. Things will never be the same again, but that is a good thing.

As is your precious son.



At 8:56 PM, Blogger Pat S. said...

Oh, Jordan, Ben is absolutely beautiful in this picture!!!

I wish you success at keeping your high vibrations. Though babies bring theirs, they are influenced by the surrounding energy, they say.

I hope you are feeling physically well.

Things are different but at certain point you look back and think: "How could I live without him?" "What did I waste my time at then?" and many etceteras...

As I see it: no better, no worse. Just different.

Much love,

At 9:15 PM, Blogger Ann Wilkes said...

He's gorgeous!


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